Could your present health state be caused entirely by whatever trauma you perceived in a younger you? That is the question in my mind. I’m reading a great book, “How To Do The Work”, written by Dr. Nicole LePera.
It is fascinating that yet another book I’ve read that is written by a psychologist, where the author discovers they in fact, are suffering the very same thing that they are treating others for. She details patterns and habits in psychological terms that are very easy to understand and offers insight on how you can create a new you. I’m almost halfway through the book and it is very hard to put down. But I force myself to so that I can process what I just read. Many times going back and re-reading.
Applying what I’ve learned so far is easy in concept and repetition is the key to having lasting results. I’m learning so much and I am getting further working every day on what I’m learning. A one hour therapy session every week could take years to get to what I feel brings me closer to healing the old me. I shouldn’t even be thinking this but what if I am able to totally heal from what caused my bipolar self to turn the switch on?
Could I actually start working again more than part time? Could I stop my social security disability income and actually go back to working? Not necessarily like before, because my old ‘work-a-holic’ self would spin back out of control. Since that is part of the puzzle that got me here in the first place. I know I can never erase the bipolar ‘gene’ that is inside. But could I actually heal myself mentally, enough to be a productive part of society and live a life with less medications and maintain a healthy mind, body and soul? That indeed, is the question.